The things that are hardest to say

Why is it so hard to tell someone you like them? Putting yourself out there knowing you could get your heart broken, but you hope for the best anyway. Sometimes you wish you could take those words back and take everything back to how they were before anything was said. On the other hand you're glad you said them, even if the topic was avoided.

Keeping your heart guarded isn't such a bad idea. It's so easy to fall for someone only for them to not feel the same. It takes you back to high school when you were crushing on someone who didn't even notice your existence. But life goes on and you pick yourself back up and move on. Or so you think, hope and pray.

So that's where I am today. Trying to hang onto how things were before I said anything, enjoying the here and now and hoping nothing changes. It would be nice to have more than this, but I dread the thought that this friendship could be ruined if it's forced into being something more. Maybe it will grow into more one day, maybe it won't. Time can only tell, and I don't mind.

So for today I'm grateful that somehow I plucked up the courage to say something and grateful it hasn't changed anything (I hope). Sometimes my heart runs ahead of my brain and tries grabbing onto something it's not quite ready for and maybe that's why I get hurt and things don't ever work out.